My heart has been altered.
My motivation is intrinsic yet faulty
My family and friends know only a part of the whole story
How could I have pushed everyone, everyone, everyone away like that and not expect the results?
Sometimes I like the loneliness. Then I have an excuse to feel sorry for myself and feel like I deserve that pity.
And then I say don’t pity me. I’ll be all right. So I listen to the song and convince myself I can make it.
Never had I ever thought it would turn out this way, but who does?
I don’t know what’s the right thing to do.